I wouldn't be here today with the dedication to my own sobriety at periods of my life. Selena Odom, Sunshine After Rain By Check out my most recent post! You think that youre stronger or smarter this time, There isnt a mountain or hill you cant climb. i am your disease poem is my poem of sorts. The poem helped me understand how sick this disease is,"cunning, baffling, powerful!" I underestimated my disease for many years. Summer Sager. Cause then you'll find a way; a way to kick me out You said you didnt deserve to be happy. I've now got the respect of my family, but most of all my children who are adults now. Reddit and its partners use cookies and similar technologies to provide you with a better experience. Organomegaly is abnormally large organs. Well if thats what youre thinking you aint learned a thing, Ill still knock you silly if you step back in my ring. I am your disease. I Hate meetingsI Hate higher powersI Hate anyone who has a program. Every pore, Unaware the alcoholic's. Truth is the Master of Manipulation, Trained by the characteristics of his disease. It can also be used to give clues about whats going to happen next. leaving me to be damned. I love to make you hurt. I come in many forms, and shapes, and size Get the Poem of the Day delivered right to your phone! By rejecting non-essential cookies, Reddit may still use certain cookies to ensure the proper functionality of our platform. I love to make you cry. How to survive life with a drug addict, whether he or she is your mom, dad, brother, sister, husband, wife, boyfriend, girlfriend, friend, son or daughter. This is your recovery. I am your disease. I AM YOUR DISEASE You know who I am, you've called me your friend Wishes of misery and heartache I send I want only to see that you're brought to your knees I'm the devil inside you, I am your disease. I Am Your Recovery | Unmanageable Living I Am Your Recovery 3 Mar While searching for the author of "I Am Your Disease," I stumbled upon this beautiful poem. %PDF-1.5 Change), You are commenting using your Facebook account. 2 0 obj Eventually I weaned off the suboxone when I felt I was ready. Youre an addict? I am with you when you feel withdrawn and when the world is cruel. Guidance on the Protection of Personal Identifiable Information U S. Department of Labor, Error Code pii_email_a42277285fa7a777ff7e Solved, How to Get Rid of the pii_email_e7ab94772079efbbcb25 Error, The Ultimate Cheat Sheet on the 7 worst habits for your brain. If youre a support group leader, itwill also offer guidance on how you can share this resource with your group. At PMD Alliance, we know you are much more than a disease. You dont have to be a poet to participate! You've been fighting this battle all alone. But you say youve surrendered, so what can I do? Allow me to introduce myself, I am the disease of alcoholism. It shows you how ugly drugs are and how they cut your life short. It is about how the disease is affecting me and how it is affecting those around me. To lie, to deny, to mince and to parcel. @FsQw+e55\%;Ci?NeqxTloPe\}Ft UM b0c S I Am Your Disease (The Many Faces of Addiction) is a must-read for any young person even thinking about experimenting with drugs. All stories are moderated before being published. I hate anyone who has a program! A disease poem is a type of poem with a topic that is often more personal and personal to the author than the poem itself. - Author Unknown Learn about Rehab at Duffy's Learn More About Us Contact Us Posted in Addiction The games plot is still a little bit of a mystery, but the game looks a bit more vibrant and deadly than its predecessor in the screenshots weve seen. Allow me to introduce myself! Ill not only hurt you, Ill kill if I please, Im your worse living nightmare. (LogOut/ So go to your meetings and pray hand in hand, for God to come save you. I hold out my hand and bring you faith. Shefford Change), You are commenting using your Twitter account. Whether you're a person living with the disease, a care partner, or another loved one, the I Am! The result is I Am Your Disease by the Anonymous Addict. Will you tell me whether Im an addict / alcoholic. We feel that something isn't right. 1 0 obj It literally means that the game is for you, the player, to have a constant, ongoing experience of the disease as you try to take care of it. I now facilitate Vet to Vet meetings at the Birmingham VA, and we read these type of poems to the groups and they absolutely love them. Our favorite lines of poetry Where did I go wrong? Book a free addiction counselling call without any obligations. You don't see me, but I'm growing more powerful everyday. Poems that confront the mystery of ailing health, diseases, treatments, healing, and dying. I hate you but am powerless to harm you. I am going to share this with my boyfriend. I Am Your Disease. Its still a little bit of a mystery as to why one of the Visionaries is so obsessed with killing people. With POEMS, the damage may cause pain or other unpleasant sensations in your legs, arms, feet or hands. So dont take for granted my powers sublime, Ill bend and Ill break you, time after time. Drugs are not cool. Create a free website or blog at WordPress.com. I'll take everything you got and still want something more You choose to have me. I am going to share this with my boyfriend. I Am Your Recovery, Check out my most recent post! For I know it will happen, Ive seen it before, Those who love misery will crawl back for more. So please dont forget me, I wont forget you, Ill stand by your side watching all that you do, Im ready and waiting, so call if you please, I wont let you forget me. Thats me! Many have chosen me, instead of love and peace. Deathloop's disease is called "i am your disease," a phrase coined by the game's developers in order to prevent players from taking it too personally. document.getElementById( "ak_js_1" ).setAttribute( "value", ( new Date() ).getTime() ); This blog is an inside look at a gay, alcoholic/addict. When youre sick you are constantly having to take medication that you dont even remember you are taking. You need to change the way you think because our thinking too much is the problem. %PDF-1.3 I love to hear your voice, Better yet, I love to see you feel a full range of emotions, knowing that you can handle them, You can feel and love deeply I'm your disease - a poem by Dali - All Poetry I'm your disease Sighing at the taste of your bound humiliation, drawing salt from your eyes leaving trails of lost encounters savours a familiar pleasure I'd forgotten all about. So true. I wish you suffering and death. Home Addictions in general I Am Your Disease. Where did I go wrong? Family, friends, and loved ones they won't matter anymore, !Believe me it's a very hard road to travel and a lot do not make it! I am looking to find out where the original "I Am Your Disease" came from and who wrote it. I'll invade all your thoughts, I'll take hostage your soul I'll become your new master, in total control I love to catch you, with Usually the addict has to hit his rock bottom to get help. I hate meetings! Privacy Policy. Required fields are marked *. I love it when I make you so numb, I am your addiction. I love to catch you by surprise. An open mind and trusting heart, And believe the sincerity that pours from. I used for nearly 20 years after I had back surgery. I wish you health and happiness, Allow me to introduce myself Don't let those people tell you what I am all about, This isnt merely a burden. When you feel fully alive, I weaken. Author Unknown Phelps Luck Alano Club The game also has a pretty cool way to let players know whats going on, with a little video showing a group of players in a mall. In any case, its fun to see and, at the very least, makes the game look a bit more interesting. Why now do you treat me like a thief. If you have any honour, Ill strip it away, Youll lose all your hope and forget how to pray, Ill leave you in darkness, while blindly you stare, Ill reduce you to nothing and wont even care. One minute I had youthen next you were gone, You just cant dismiss all the good times weve shared. you want to know why? The I Am! I hate all of you who work a 12step program. You feel nothing at all. Also, subscribe/follow me to find out more! Deathloops disease is called i am your disease, a phrase coined by the games developers in order to prevent players from taking it too personally. endobj I am your disease. View michael-kolodziej-05aa4289s profile on LinkedIn, View 116728633839797200466s profile on Google+, Follow The Wandering Enigma on WordPress.com. Wishes of misery and heartache I send. I bring self destruction, but still you can't tell. Ive killed millions and enjoyed doing it. 6 7 Warren Court The poem helped me realize that I needed to be proactive to keep my disease at bay. Once you or your members have writtenyour poems, submit them using the form below. Whether youre a person living with the disease, a care partner, or another loved one, the I Am! Allow me to introduce myself This is a truly bone-chilling description of just what drug addiction is, how the drugs hijack the brain and take over the entire mind and body. I hate anyone who has a program. I've stolen from you your sense of pride, not letting you see that you are beautiful on the inside. There are some of us that if we try crack we will eventually became addicted to it. Omg! People dont take me seriously. It taught me I had to work hard everyday to . This is true Grace, I will give you contentment and all I ask is commitment, When things were going wrong in your life, you invited me, You said, I DESERVE GOOD THINGS and I agreed with you, Together, we are able to create all the good things in your life, When you are fully committed to me, you will be taken seriously, Like self-destruction, I do not come uninvited To all who come in contact with me, I wish you suffering and death. <> I live in another state. These poems explore the many stages, and emotions, of illness, in some of our toughest times, when we and our loved ones are most vulnerable. Now look at you bastards, youre thinking clear, You escaped with your lives when you found your way here. I tried anything and everything I could get could get my hands on. . I am your worst enemy! ! This is common in poetry, art, and nonfiction. My son recently had a major back surgery done. I am your disease. The blood stains on the smothered floor. For now I must lie here quietly. I'll become your new master, I'm in total . It is a behavior. For many years I've urged folks to read, "I am Your Disease " as that poem succinctly defines the power of addiction by personifying the disease. I volunteer humility and shower you with confidence. Its so sad in a way, I had big plans for you, Creating your nightmare for me was a dream, Im sure gonna miss youwe made quite a team, So please dont forget me, I wont forget you, Ill stand by your side watching all that you do, Im ready and waiting, so call if you please, I wont let you forget meI am your disease, Scan this QR code to download the app now. I want only to see that your brought to your knees. (LogOut/ Heres how the game actually works: i am your disease is a game in which players take control of the disease and have to survive for a certain amount of time. Your email address will not be published. Until we meet again, I wish you continued suffering and death. cuz I cant stand to lose, So stand in your groups and support hand in hand, Better choices will save youleaving me to be damned, Well, be damned all you people seeking treatment each week, Be damned all your sayings, be damned your cliches, Be damned every addict, who back to me strays, For I know it will happen, Ive seen it before, Those who love misery will crawl back for more, So take comfort in knowing, Im waiting right here, But next time around, youd just better beware, You think that youre stronger or smarter this time, There isnt a mountain or hill you cant climb, Well if thats what youre thinkin, you aint learned a thing, Ill still knock you silly if you step back in my ring. It literally means that the game is for you, the player, to have a constant, ongoing experience of the disease as you try to take care of it. poem is a chance to honor that, to see yourself in your fullness. No addict can get clean unless THEY WANT TO! Hello fellow addicts I am your disease, I will never let you sleep or put your mind at ease, I will always be here no matter where you go, I am smarter than you and I am in control, Family, friends, and loved ones they won't matter anymore, I'll take everything you got and still want something more I cant function in the manner I am accustomed to. We lean on our loved ones. When you settle for mere existence, I thrive. Carrie Roush, Welcome To Hell By Well be damned all your meetings each night of the week, Be damned Higher Powers, however unique, Be damned all your sayings, be damned your cliches, Be damned every addict who back to me strays. I will always be here no matter where you go, Chicksands You just cant dismiss all the good times weve shared, When you were alone wasnt it I who appeared? stream To all who come in contact with me, I wish you death and I wish you suffering. Seeking the death of a soul but too strong Brenda Winders, Dear Heroin By If you continue to use this site we will assume that you are happy with it. Until we meet again, I am a recovering addict and thank God I have been clean since 8/2006. And all the joy the world has to offer, Tags: aa, Addiction, drug addicts, freedom, hope, NA, recovery. I'll sweep you through heaven, then drop you in hell. You can get sick without even knowing it and no one seems to care. Zoom info Click here for zoom meeting Meeting ID:910 6756 5136 Password: none. In fact, it seems that most of us are just too busy trying to be happy to notice when something is wrong. and even being 10, 20, 30 year sober in recovery you can still relapse it does take a matter of time it takes a matter of wanting to be sober and wanting to get rid of everything, feeling, troubles it give you. <>/ExtGState<>/ProcSet[/PDF/Text/ImageB/ImageC/ImageI] >>/MediaBox[ 0 0 612 792] /Contents 4 0 R/Group<>/Tabs/S/StructParents 0>> I was a heroin user. He is 28 years old and the doctor prescribed him morphine pills. Alcoholism, drugs and eating disorders. You are infected, and you need to take care of it. Sobriety, for me, was the #1 priority in life. I love to be your friend and kind attendant, I have helped you learn to comfort yourself I first saw it in treatment, July 13th, 1995. He has seen the snipers waiting in the wings. kH`9m>TV|(%KJ0|{K5-8uG\e/-B9zv]AV(k3[;T and our When you feel fully alive, I weaken. To promise, to plead, to swear on all that is holy. Hello fellow addicts I am your disease, 5 0 obj But today Im real angry. I never understood why the addicts I loved couldn't just stop until I went through it myself. We worry. Please help. When you sold those possessions you knew you would need, Wasnt I the first one who stepped in and agreed, Now look at you bastards, youre all thinking clear, You escaped with your lives when you found your way here, Only fools think theyre winners when admitting defeat, Its what you must say when youre claiming that seat, Go ahead and surrender, if thats what you choose, But, Im not giving up. We use cookies to ensure that we give you the best experience on our website. I feel like if he doesn't get help, drugs are going to kill him. I am smarter than you and I am in control, And the eyes of bewilderment, seeking one last sweet breath. Where do you come from? It is about how much I am your disease. No big deal! through writing your own poem, making it simple and accessible. % My life is far from perfect now, but at least I am not high and I do not have to worry about drugs ruining my life anymore! I've been clean 11 years 10 months and 7 days. But I'm always here waiting for you. Ive always been there for you. endobj I wish you suffering and death whether it be physically, mentally, emotionally or spiritually. When you wanted to die, didnt you call on me? View More. Your programs, your meetings, your support, your Higher Power all weaken me and I can't . We agree to have tests. I Am Your Disease. Ill crumble your world with the greatest of ease, Im that madman inside you. My mom brought this poem to my attention tonight and I wanted to share with you all. I hate meetings. Only fools think theyre winners when admitting defeat, Its what you must say when youre claiming that seat. Its so sad in a way, I had big plans for you. Cunning, baffling, and powerful. 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